I better not jinx this...

Overall, I'd say I had a good week. I came out alive on many obstacles, I was able to control the class with less and less effort, and I realized an epiphany for my classroom management: It is what I WANT. I Want this class to be silent right now, I Want you to work on the assignment. I Want you to pass. Its working for now.

I got observed by one of my department chairs. "You did better." I am going to take that as a compliment. That does actually mean a lot to me. I need an observer from the other department I am with, as well as my principal to observe me. I think it will go well.

My team teacher is fantastic. A physicist and a mathematician are getting along... for now. It's great when we are showing our styles to the students. I am seeing it as how Teachers from different fields take on a task, but unfortunately I think our students are seeing it as how a guy and a girl teach math.

Friday-leullia!!

This might have been one of the longest weeks ever! Thank god I documented half of it, and the last two days were half days! That only means I still had energy for other activities afterward. I spent time tearing apart my lab looking through all the junk that I inherited with the classroom, a lot of resource sheets that help guide me through the semester, books all over the place, papers, equipment, toys, and BOXES FULL OF EMPTY SHOE BOXES!! What is the point of that! I kept finding new things to do differently for my class, and it just puts me further back on trying to get an organized classroom, but I will overcome. Anyways, I'm staying in tonight. Working on some online geometry, grading, and sleep.

I need to get it together somehow

Family Day

I had come back as I normally do. A place where I may experience triumph or a feeling of defeat. Today was more triumphant than the latter. The equipment I received the night before was the major component to everything I needed for my toughest class. It was a success even with the parents.
The next class with my team teacher was wonderful as well. We took turns, answered questions, and got the students to do work on their own. Productivity all around. The rest of the classes were normal, so I have now a feeling of fatigue. I get to relax now thankfully. There were a couple students sending notes to eachother during class, I assume they wanted me to find out about it or else they would have taken it with them at the end of class. New seat arrangement for tomorrow. I think that was the only bummer for today. I will redeem myself in some other way. The rest of the week is short classes and I think I have an idea planned out for what is gonig on in which class. Lesson Planning helps, as long as you dont have to write a book to produce a 50 minute lesson. The good news is that I am starting to see the end of the week now, the bad news is all the work I will have to do when the weekend hits.

It's still Tuesday!

So today was kinda rough. It was a little hectic with the overwhelming events happening this week. So many times I caught myslef realizing, it's only Tuesday! Groundhog Day, Primary Election Day.

There was an incident I felt I couldn't control. Some girls were being downright mean. Phone calls were made, hardly any of them got to an actual person, and the victim has a lineup of defense to spread a football field, and I had to calm all of them down. Tomorrow will be a new day, and I will be able to act better IF the same situation were to arise.
I actually do not feel as bad as I did several hours ago. I finally got out of that building with a positive note about my equipment getting delivered that I need for tomorrow, and I got all the copies setup and prepared ready to kickstart the day. I've done some but not all of my grading, and I think I will get a good night's rest hopefully soon. This counting blessings moment helps.
I saw other teachers teach today. They are amazing. It's not that I want their style, I just want to do better with my students than I already am doing. Even the students that are trouble can be good students. I wish to see that side soon from them. The only feeling I share with those who are offering to help change my style of teaching is fragile stubbornness, I do have my own track of doing things, but it takes a lot of time, and then some more time, and then a lot of effort, to get on a new track. In a physics sense, my momentum is huge once I get started, but then to change takes even greater amount of force to change the momentum. I hope that makes sense.
As far as anything else goes, my only fear is to poison the young minds with useless information or at most, misguided information.

What is neat though from the other day with my team teacher, I sat back and watched her teach. I realized, I teach like a physicist! Utilization of brute tactics to have physics drive the math when solving any type of problem. I dont skip steps, but I do just lay it out and carry on.